Khushi’s Interlude
Four years ago
Delhi
“Bitiya, what does it say?”
“Arrey, of course it says, yes. Will you let her finish reading the letter?”
I look up at my parents who are anxiously waiting for my response, but I still can’t believe it myself.
“Um… I got accepted to Wharton. It also says, based on my grades and internships, I qualify for the Executive MBA program and they are giving me a partial scholarship. Oh my God, I can’t believe I got in… Amma… Babuji… I got in! Can you believe this?” The adrenaline rushes through as I jump up and down.
My father takes the acceptance letter from my hand, no doubt afraid I will ruin it.
Once I calm down, I remember to take my parents blessings and engulf them as they congratulate me. My father’s shoulders are in fine form feeling proud, while there is a hint of sadness with my mother about me leaving in a month.
“We are so proud of you, Titaliya. It looks like you are closer to having your dream fulfilled of working in the corporate world.”
“Most kids, want to be a doctor or engineer, but not our daughter. She wants to be a businesswoman. It’s all because of all the business news you watch all day, since she was a child. So this was bound to happen. I just pray to Devi Maiya that your dreams come true. Our only child, our miracle. I wish you’re always happy like you are now. Nazar na lagey kisi ki.”
“Amma, you are so dramatic. Maybe when I am not here for you to smother, you can go work for a serial. Guarantee you will win an award, Best Ma! And my dream is to be a CEO, so please pray for that specifically.”
I can see her frowning, so I pull her into an embrace which brings the smile back to her face.
“Haan, my baccha, I will pray for that specifically. But, who is going to want to marry a CEO? You know our culture… I support your dream, but you have to…”
My dad gives me a nod, as he interrupts her, neither one of us wanting to have that debate with her.
“Garima, let her enjoy her moment right now. Plus, it takes years to become a CEO, she still has a long journey ahead of her for that to happen.”
I shake my head, as the banter continues with my father taking my side. But, my mother is under the assumption that if I reach my career goals, it would be hard to find an alliance for me.
What rubbish!
Why can’t women be successful and hold high level positions?
Doesn’t matter, I am proud of my achievement for getting into a top business school. It’s one step closer to achieving my ultimate goal.
Wharton, here I come!
*****
A couples weeks later as we are having dinner, my mother seems very happy. This is odd, since she’s been sulking about me leaving. She keeps looking at my father giving him signals to say something. But he seems uncertain.
“Okay, what’s going between you two? Out with it.”
My father shakes his head, but my mother decides to speak up.
“Yesterday, when we went to Komal’s wedding, your Babuji met an old friend from Lucknow. They were so nice. Oh, and their son was also with them, unlike you who made an excuse last minute and did not come. He is such a sweet boy. Guess what?”
I know exactly where this conversation is headed. Whenever my mother says sweet boy means rishta discussion. And, that is not happening. Not now.
“Amma, why should I guess? Since you are going to tell me, so go ahead.”
“Sameer goes to Wharton too, can you believe it? He is doing his MBA in International Business, and is here for a few weeks on break. The boy is good looking, the family is really nice. And it seems you both have similar goals. So, we were thinking…”
“Really, what were you thinking? Let me guess, I should marry him, right? After all he seems like a perfect match for me. Tell me Amma, did you set the wedding date?”
“Khushi, calm down. Is that anyway to talk to your Amma? No one is talking about getting married right now, but you have to admit, it’s a great match. You both will be in the same school, which gives you time to get to know one another. We can talk about marriage once you both are finished with your studies. No one is going to force you into marriage. Think about it, you will share the same career goals, and his family will support you with your dream like we do. So, yes. It is a perfect match. Give me a reason why it’s not.”
“Bitiya, we have always supported you, can’t you at least consider this proposal? We just want what’s best for you.”
I look at both of my parents, and I know they mean well. They’re my parents. But I don’t need the burden of being in a relationship when, for the next two years, I need to focus on my studies.
But how can I say no to them?
“Since you have already made the decision, there is nothing else for me to say. I will do whatever you want me to do, happy? Can I please be excused now? I am finished with my dinner, and would like to go upstairs to start with packing.”
As I look around my room, I think about my childhood in this house. My parents have always been by my side, and have fulfilled every wish of mine. I know the sacrifices they are making so I can attend Wharton. Even with a partial scholarship, there are significant expenses for the next couple of years.
Just like I am their everything, they are mine.
Why can’t I happily do this for them?
It’s the only thing they have ever asked from me.
Now the question is, who the heck is this Mr. Perfect… Sameer?
He sounds too good to be true.
*****
A month later, after settling in at Wharton, Sameer and I decide to meet for dinner. Due to our schedules, and his work, we haven’t had a chance to meet earlier. Which was perfectly fine with me, as I am in no rush, with my classes keeping me busy. Based on my counselor’s recommendation, I have also signed up for a business case study. It allows me to gain experience with conducting analysis and preparing a presentation on a real company facing a business issue. And the opportunity to share it with a few PR agencies, after which they hire the student with the top case study. So, if all goes well based on what I can put together, I might have a chance for getting a full time position. That should help from a financial standpoint instead of having my parents paying for my tuition and expenses.
“Okay, where the hell is this guy? He’s already thirty minutes late. Couldn’t he call or send a quick text. I look like an idiot waiting here in the front of the restaurant. That’s it I give him five more minutes, then I am leaving.” I mutter, glancing at my phone for any messages to find none. But then I notice a red Lexus aggressively pulling into a parking spot, cutting off another driver. It disgusts me at how inconsiderate someone can be, when clearly the other car was waiting.
“What a jerk! Wait, is that him? Yes it is… damn.”
Of course, I had stalked him on Facebook for a glimpse, not to mention I was curious since my parents have deemed him as Mr. Perfect.
He looks like an average guy, not ugly, but not attractive either. My heart is definitely not going haywire, according to all those romance novels I have read. He is only a couple inches taller than me, and skinny. All bones and no muscles. His hair is not well groomed, a little on the longer side, with dark brown eyes, covered behind his glasses and dusky complexion. Overall, he is average. I guess I can deal with him.
As he approaches me, there’s an arrogant vibe about him. A typical dominant male, making me wonder if his personality is the same.
He smiles, extending his hand out to me, then firmly shakes my hand. Which feels extremely odd.
What is this, a business deal?
“Hi Khushi, I am Sameer. It’s nice to finally meet you. Sorry for being late, but I got held up at work, dealing with an issue. You should have waited inside for me.”
“Hi, it’s nice to meet you as well. Not a problem, I understand issues come up at work. For a while I was thinking you stood me up, since there was no message from you. If you need to get back to work we can reschedule.”
“No, then I will feel more guilty. I am really sorry, let’s go inside.”
I nod, and he walks ahead of me into the restaurant without even glancing at me. Which I assume must be from being preoccupied with work.
Once we are seated, both of us remain quiet looking through the menu. Though, he does look at his phone periodically.
“So, are you all settled? I think your parents had mentioned you were staying on campus in the Graduate housing.” He asks once the waitress takes our order.
“Yes, luckily I was able to get a one bedroom apartment in Sansom Place. It’s a nice building with mostly graduate students, plus it’s on campus so easy to get around everywhere without me having to buy a car. Are you on campus as well?”
“Actually, last semester I was in the same building. But, this time I decided to get an apartment off campus with a friend of mine. Papa just bought me a car, since I started working. It’s an internship, part of the work study program. I am hoping this job works out, and I get an offer. Then I will be able to settle down in the States. How do you like it here so far?”
“Oh, congratulations on the internship. Hopefully it all works out for you. So far, I am loving it here, even my classes and professors. I have also signed up for a business case study, which has been a very interesting experience. We present to a few PR firms next week. I heard they will hire someone if they like the findings. So, let’s see what happens. But, I do miss home and my parents. This is my first time away from them.”
He gives me incredulous expression, catching me off guard.
“I can’t believe you miss home and your parents, really? I love my independence with no nagging parents on my back. That’s why I am hoping I get a permanent offer to be able to stay here. And, about getting that job, don’t get your hopes up high. I had tried that as well, it’s really tough and they’re particular about who they select. Maybe you should look elsewhere, start off with an entry level position.”
I stare at him, unsure how to react. But then I guess not everyone is close to their family, and I have no right to judge him.
Luckily our food arrives, and the topic turns into more about our likes and dislikes.
We have similar taste in food, he has a sweet tooth and loves spicy food. We both have the same interest in Bollywood movies and American TV dramas. Like my father mentioned, our career goals are the same. Both of us ambitious about marking our place in the corporate world.
All in all, we could actually get along well, putting aside his arrogance.
“Khushi, I had a great time tonight. It looks like our parents were right about us. I really like you, so if you are okay with it, meaning me, maybe we can start seeing each other. What do you think?”
“I had a great time as well, I guess there’s no harm in seeing where this goes. Seeing how delighted our parents will be.”
Why do I feel like we closed a business deal?
This by no means is how I imagined getting into a relationship with someone.
*****
The next couple of weeks, Sameer and I speak regularly on the phone and even have met for coffee on campus in between classes. With both of us being busy, there hasn’t been an opportunity for another formal date. Until tonight.
A part of me is relieved that he doesn’t expect me to drop my studies to go out with him. There seems to be a mutual understanding, knowing how much work and time school requires. Not to mention he’s working full time.
This time he picks me up, so I make my way downstairs when he calls to let me know that he is a few minutes away. As I get inside his car, he’s on the phone. He pulls away instantly, without even a glance at me.
While I understand he’s busy, but can’t he acknowledge with a simple gesture? He sounds rather obnoxious on the phone, so I decide to keep my eyes out the window.
“Sorry, I was dealing with my study partner. Our project is due tomorrow, and I haven’t had time to work on it. If it’s alright with you, I might have to make it a quick dinner.”
“Sure, that’s fine. It’s okay with me if you want to head back now. We can do this some other time.”
“No, I am hungry so might as well eat, then I will pull an all-nighter finishing the project. Also, didn’t you want to talk to me about something?”
“Yes, but I will tell you once we get to the restaurant.”
My mood changes, thinking about my news, and I can’t help but smile widely.
He surprises me, returning a smile and takes a hold of my hand. I am taken aback, since this is the first time he has touched me. I guess the formal hand shake when we first met doesn’t count.
But it’s strange that I don’t feel anything. Based on what I have read, aren’t you supposed to feel a spark or something? Maybe I am overthinking it.
We decide on Mexican at a famous fast food place, and I offer to pay as a treat on the good news I have to share with him.
“Remember that Business case study… well guess what happened?”
“Obviously you didn’t get selected. Right?”
I stare at him in disbelief, as he eats his burrito without even looking in my direction. Taking a deep breath, I push aside his abrasive tone, and deliver the exciting news.
“Actually, I did get selected. Ogilvy’s offered me a full time Business Analyst position. Also, they offer an education reimbursement as part of the package, which should cover the remaining amount of my tuition that my scholarships don’t. The best part is I get to work alongside with one of their female Executives, who heads up marketing. This is so exciting, there’s so much I can learn from her, not to mention their client portfolio which is quite diverse. I still can’t believe they extended me an offer.”
I can’t hold back my excitement, but his expressions are mixed making it hard to read him.
“Sameer, what happened? Did you hear what I just said?”
“Are you sure it’s a full time position and not an internship? I have never heard of such a thing. And there is no way they will pay for your MBA.”
What’s wrong with this guy? Here I was thinking he would be happy for me, but instead he’s doubting me.
“Yes it’s a full time position with an option to work from home a couple of days to accommodate my school schedule. The case study I presented was an actual client of theirs, and they want to implement some of my recommendations which will help them grow in a year’s time. As for the scholarship, I actually negotiated that into my offer. I don’t want my parents to sacrifice their retirement savings on my education.”
“You did what? Now they are going to think it’s about money for you versus the position. That was a dumb move, Khushi. You should think or at least consulted with me before negotiating.” He shakes his head, and looks down on his phone.
“First of all, HR asked me what it would take for me to accept the position on the spot, since they want me to start Monday. Also, there was another PR firm that wanted to offer me a position. I told them, and they said yes immediately, before I had a chance to go elsewhere. I already signed my offer letter. So, it’s a done deal.” I proceed to eat quickly, ready for this dinner to be over. But when I look up, he’s staring at me with his mouth wide open.
“Well, I guess congratulations are in order. Congratulations, Khushi!”
He places his hand over mine from across, the table and I give him a faint smile.
“Thank you.”
For someone who is going to be my life partner, I would have expected more. There was nothing genuine about his wishes.
But I decide to let it go, since he’s stressed about his project.
*****
“Khushi, are you going to keep mumbling like that? Or are you going to tell me why you were happy a second ago, and now you look like you want to punch someone?”
I look over at my friend who has been patient as I exchange text messages with Sameer. Shaking my head, I put my phone in my purse so I can enjoy my lunch in peace.
“It’s nothing, Anjali. Sameer just cancelled our dinner tonight, again. Sometimes, I just don’t get him. I am busy too, but I make the time for him when he wants to see me. I drop what I am doing to meet him for coffee or lunch. Even when he needs help with his course work, I am there. We have been together now for six months, but we barely see each other for more than thirty minutes when we are together. How is this relationship going to work?”
“That’s because you both have fulltime jobs and school. It’s bound to happen. But it will get better after you get married and school is out of the way. Look at Shyam and I, we were the same, but our love for one another makes this relationship stronger plus we communicate. Maybe you need to tell Sameer how you feel. He will understand.”
I wish I could.
All I can do is smile, unsure how to reply.
“I guess you are right. Can I ask you a question?”
“Why are you being so formal? We have become really good friends in the past six months. I tell you everything about my life. What is on your mind?”
“Woh… um… how do you know when you love someone?”
She smiles at me, and puts her hand on mine.
“Oh, Khushi, how do I explain this to you? Well, when you love someone, they are the first person you think about, and you would do anything for them. When they walk in the room, you heart beats faster. You love their imperfections, and support them with their decisions. And, you can’t see your life without them… it becomes about having a forever with that person. Does that make sense?”
There’s an uncertainty with which I take in what she has said, as I lean back on the chair. Though that’s not what I voice out loud to her.
“Yes, it does.”
“But it has to be both ways, and it doesn’t happen overnight like you see in the movies or read in romance novels. People often mistake attraction for love. Even when they are intimate, they quickly say, I love you. But that’s not always love. That’s attraction, and there is nothing wrong with that.”
I walk away from the conversation, realizing that I don’t feel attraction or love for Sameer. Yes, I support him, and have planned my life with him, but I don’t feel those emotions.
But when he recently said, I love you, to me while we were kissing, why did I say it back?
Was it because, I felt that I ought to say it?
Do I blame that on inexperience with relationships and my age?
All I know is that I need to talk to him.
*****
The following week, I finally muster up the courage to have an actual conversation about our relationship with Sameer. I tell him about my feelings, along with my thoughts about love in general. We talk about the lack of time that keeps us away. Both of us agree to communicate with one another, which has been a huge gap in our relationship thus far.
I am surprised when he brings up the topic of sex. While we have been intimate to a certain degree, but till this day, I have not felt comfortable taking that step forward. Well aware, if it had been up to him, we would have had sex. But, there is something stopping me, it just doesn’t feel right.
“Are you saying that you want to wait till we are married?”
“I am not saying that, but we need to work through our relationship first. We can’t even give each other time, so how is this going to work? I am not ready yet…”
“Then maybe we can move in together?”
“That’s not the solution here, plus our parents would never approve. Please let’s work on our issues first, before we take that step in our relationship.”
I walk up to him, taking his hand and plead for him to understand if this has any chance of working.
“Okay, you are right. But, I am still allowed to do this, right?”
He leans down to kiss me, and I kiss him back in hopes that we can make this work. For the sake of our families.
*****
The next six months, we both make the effort, and our relationship indeed becomes stronger. We carve out time for each other when possible, though it’s not much since work and school keeps us very busy. I support his decisions, look over his imperfections, and I think about our married life together.
“Oh my God, you won’t believe what happened at work today…”
“Here we go again, what great thing did you do today?”
“Uh… forget it. So, what do you want to do for your graduation celebration?”
At times I want to chide myself for bringing up my work, aware he doesn’t like to hear about it. He’s been upset the past month after learning his internship did not extend to a permanent position. And I need to be sensitive talking about my accomplishments.
“I am sorry, Khushi. Please tell me what happened.” He sighs, pulling me into an embrace.
“It’s okay… it’s not a big deal.” I take a deep breath, wrapping my arms around his shoulder. It’s when he softly urges me to continue, do I speak. “I got promoted to Marketing Analytics Manager.”
But he throws me off, literally pushing me away and scowls, causing me to flinch.
“Just great, here I can’t find a job, and you get a promotion. This is fucking ridiculous. I have seen your work, and there is nothing extraordinary about it. What are they thinking? Let’s forget celebrating. I need to find a job, before my parents make me go back to India and start with the “look how great Khushi is” lecture.”
Why did I say anything when he is stressed about finding a job?
It doesn’t have to be about me all the time.
*****
The next year while I am at Wharton completing my MBA, Sameer heads to Chicago with his friend and luckily finds an Analyst position with an Investment firm. Both of us keep in touch daily the first couple of months, then it goes to a few days a week then weekly. The one thing that has helped is we aren’t arguing.
It makes me happy that he is doing well at work, and gets promoted after six months. It’s all because of his hard work and long hours. And it seems like the confident Sameer is back, which is a good thing. Though, I am still careful not to talk about my grades and accomplishments at work to avoid any further conflicts.
What’s the need anyway?
During my graduation, I am surprised when he comes for a couple of days to visit. Having him and my parents there as I get my degree makes it even more special. Since my parents are here, we don’t get to spend any time alone, but then we have our whole life in front of us for that.
After the ceremony, we go out for a celebratory lunch, and I also invite Anjali and Shyam since they have been a big support system for me during my stay here.
“Your Amma and I are so proud of you for graduating top of your class with a 4.0 GPA. That is impressive, and you should be proud of this accomplishment too. My Titaliya is all set to take on the corporate world.”
Seeing my parents emotional, beaming with pride, makes me tear up. If it weren’t for their encouragement, I would not have been able to do this.
“Uncle, our Khushi has already taken over the corporate world. I can’t believe she is up for another promotion as Director of Marketing once she has her degree. I am so happy for my bestie. But please, make her take some time off, she needs it. She has been working nonstop for two years.”
My dear emotional friend joins my parents in the emotional dramatics, causing me to shake my head, as she finishes her little speech.
“Of course Anjali, now we have a wedding to plan. I am just counting the days for her to come home, so I can fulfill my dream of seeing her get married. You and Shyam have to come for sure.”
As Anjali opens her mouth to accept the invitation, Sameer interrupts.
“Auntie, there is still time for us to get married. Let us get our careers started, we still need a couple of years. Am I right, Khushi?”
I feel him slightly kick my leg underneath the table, no doubt to agree with him. Looking at my mother’s expression, I can tell she is shocked at his clipped tone. Plus, he has said barely said anything during the lunch.
“Yes, Amma, we still need time. Plus, Sameer is in Chicago while I complete my assignment over the next couple of months. Before you know it I will be back home with you. Theek hai?”
The table gets quiet for a few moments, but Anjali and Shyam engage my parents in a conversation, which works well to distract them. Thank goodness for my friends.
“Why am I learning about your GPA, you being top of your class or upcoming promotion today? It looks like me being away has given you a lot of time to focus on other things. Too bad you are not that great with keeping your soon to be husband happy.”
I close my eyes, as he whispers in my ears, before making an excuse to go to the restroom.
What can I do to make him happy?
No matter what I do, it’s never good enough.
*****
A few months later, I transfer to Delhi with my new promotion until we are ready to get married. I want to spend as much time as I can with my parents before the wedding, knowing that Sameer wants us to settle in the States.
But Sameer and I rarely talk now because of the time difference. I don’t know what to do anymore about him. Maybe once we get married and are living together, things will get better.
Our parents are planning the wedding for next year, but are pushing us to get engaged now, while Sameer is visiting for a couple of weeks. And he is not at all please, with his time being consumed with preparations for the party. Thankfully the day of the engagement he is fine.
The engagement ceremony turns out to be a lavish affair at a five star hotel hosted by his parents, with all our acquaintances invited. I get overwhelmed seeing the joy on my parents face during the party, and I realize that my one yes to marry this man is the biggest gift I could have given them.
“I hope you are not crying because you are stuck with me for life. But it’s almost a done deal.”
I look up at his serious gaze after we exchange rings.
“Why would I cry about that? I am emotional seeing my parents that’s all.”
“You and your parents, I don’t understand this weird relationship you have with them. Okay, listen… I got a room upstairs, so when the party is over come see me upstairs.”
“Um… I… can’t… what would I tell my parents?”
“Don’t worry about them, my parents are taking all the adults back to our house. I will tell them I will drop you home. Come on don’t look at me like we are committing a sin… we are engaged for god’s sake. And we haven’t had any alone time in how long?”
“And whose fault is that?”
“What did you say? Forget it, I don’t even know why I try…”
I grab his hand as he is about to walk off the stage.
“Fine, I will come upstairs.”
Once the party wraps up, and I enter the room with the key he gave me, I notice he is not here. After a few minutes, my heart races as I hear the door open and see him standing there.
“You actually came, I thought you wouldn’t show up.”
He comes up close to me, and caresses the side of my face. But something doesn’t look right. I close my eyes, as he kisses my neck pulling me into his arms. His hands go to the back of my choli, and pull onto the dori tightly untying it, and I stiffen. He slides my blouse down on one side, kissing my bare shoulder as I grasp onto his hand.
“Oh Khushi, you have made me wait for a long time, but not tonight.”
I look at his darkened gaze, as he lowers his lips to mine and kisses me. But, I push him away.
“What the fuck are you doing?”
“I can ask you the same question, are you drunk? I knew something was off with the way you walked in here, and even your eyes.”
“What difference does that make?”
“It makes a huge difference! I am not going to do this while you are intoxicated. Is this really how you want to remember our first time? We don’t even have a cordial relationship anymore! We rarely talk, and when we do, it leads to an argument. I can’t believe this… what is wrong with me… why did I come up here?”
I feel my fingers tremble as I try to retie the dori, which is turning out to be herculean task as I struggle to hold back the tears from falling. I refuse to let him see me cry.
“Everything is wrong with you! We are engaged, isn’t that considered a relationship? I think it is, so stop acting all high and mighty. That act might work for you in the office, but not with me. Do you get that? You know what… just go home, and get out of my face. Here’s some money, and take a cab.”
Ready to lash out, I glare at him as he throws money at my face. But he swiftly walks to the bathroom slamming the door shut.
What just happened?
Is this my fault?
What am I going to tell my parents?
When I get home, my parents are not back yet so I run upstairs into my bedroom and lock the door. My body shakes, recalling tonight as I pace my room not knowing how to handle the situation. The tears stream down my face unchecked, and I can’t breathe.
What is happening to my life?
That’s the mantra I keep chanting until I collapse onto my bed shutting my eyes.
The next morning, I wake up hearing my mother banging on the door.
“Khushi? Wake up, baccha… you are going to be late for work.” I look around, and everything seems to be hazy.
Was I having a nightmare?
Why am I still wearing my lengha?
Then everything from last night comes flashing back. It wasn’t a nightmare, it actually happened.
“Titaliya… are you awake?”
“Yes Babuji, I will be downstairs in fifteen minutes.”
I can’t tell my parents what happened, it will break their hearts.
The next week, I keep myself occupied with work and neither one of us calls the other. I have blocked that night out of my head, since I have no solution to fix this mess that my life has become.
But I am hit with reality when I walk into my house one evening to find Sameer and his family there.
“Oh good Khushi is here, come… we have great news.”
I walk over to my father who beckons me to sit with him. Everyone has a smile on their face, including Sameer. Which makes me uneasy for some reason.
“Khushi, we are getting married next week. Isn’t that exciting?”
“What?!”
My mother nudges me for my outburst.
“Sameer got a few extra weeks of leave, and since he won’t be able to come back for a few years due to work. It’s best to have the wedding now. Beta, you can go there once your transfer gets approved.” His father speaks up.
I look over at my father for help, but he gets busy talking to my mother. Then I look over at Sameer, and he signals me to go to the kitchen.
“What are you up to? You don’t call for a week after our engagement, and you show up at my house with this…”
“Listen, Khushi. I am really sorry for my behavior, but it’s been stressful. Plus we haven’t had time for one another, so things got out of control. That night, my friends slipped in a few drinks… I did not mean to get drunk. I just want to make this right between us, and finally start our life together. You have to admit the long distance relationship just doesn’t work. What do you say? We finally start our life on a clean slate…”
“How are we going to do that? What about my work?”
“There are plenty of jobs in Chicago, and with your resume you can get a job anywhere you want. So, quit, and relax for a few months as we get settled over there. Let’s do this, please.”
I am torn with what I should do. But, as my mother comes into the kitchen and I see the smile on her face, it’s obvious what I have to do. I nod, and he pulls me into an embrace, which makes my mother smile in awe.
The next few days go by in a blur, between work and the wedding preparations. I was able to convince him to let me work for a couple of months till he finds a place for us.
His mother calls me one evening to help Sameer at the guest house to prepare for out of town guests that will be coming for the wedding.
“Oh, this will be fun, I can surprise him. This should make him happy and give us some time together before the wedding.”
When I get to the house, I find the hidden key outside the house. His mother had told me about it over the phone, just in case he wasn’t here.
As I walk inside, I start feeling anxious seeing clothes scattered on the floor. My feet stop on their own accord, as I look around seeing a dress and heels.
But, I then quickly move to the back of the house, as I hear Sameer’s laugh. When I approach the bedroom door, it’s slightly ajar. My heart beats erratically, pushing it open, as I hear him groan. I can hear the laugh of a woman, which quickly turns into a breathy moan of pleasure. My body becomes numb, and I stand there to see my fiancé in bed with another woman.
She screams as she sees me, which makes him turn around.
“Shit! Khushi…what are you doing here? It’s… not what you think.”
He climbs off the bed, pulling on his jeans.
“Are you fucking serious? This is not what I think it is?!” I lose it, shaking my head feverishly, then let out a mocking laugh as I make my way outside.
“Wait, please let me explain. I am sorry…” He says coming up behind me grabbing my hand.
“GET YOUR FILTHY HANDS OFF OF ME, RIGHT NOW! Do you think this is a fucking joke? What were you thinking- oh wait, you weren’t thinking at all! Tell me is the first time or have you done th…”
I look up at him in disbelief, running my hands through my hair, as he looks down in shame.
“I don’t believe this! How many times have you done this before? Why Sameer, why? I loved you! I tried to make this relationship work. Was it only about sex for you? Fucking say something and stop staring at me. Or are you not man enough to admit it?!”
“Yes, it was about sex, you kept pushing me away so what was I supposed to do? I got tired of waiting around, plus you weren’t with me so…”
“Oh, and that makes it okay? Are you even listening to yourself? You know what I am done with you… the wedding is off.”
“Khushi, don’t do this-”
He grabs onto my hand again as I am leaving. I turn around and scowl up at him as my rage takes over, then slap him hard, my voice shaking with barely controlled anger.
“Touch me again, and I will kick you where it hurts the most.”
I storm out of the house and drive away, not knowing what to do next. There is no way I will marry him now. I can’t marry him.
Were the last few years nothing to him?
What is going to happen to my parents?
The wedding is in a few days…
I walk inside my house in a daze, and look at my parents who are labeling gifts on the table. They look so happy, and I am about to crush their dream.
“Titaliya, what’s wrong with you? Are you sick? Garima, get some water… hurry.”
I slump down on the floor staring up at my father, who is holding up face questioning me.
“Babuji… woh… Sameer…”
I can’t say anything more, as my father holds me tightly securing me in his arms, as my mother hugs me from behind. I lose control, breaking down and sobbing about what I had witnessed.
How can someone who says they love you do this to you?
How did I not see this before?
Why does this hurt so much?
What did I do to deserve this?
Was there something lacking in me?
I spend the next year going through mixed emotions, trying to find the answers to those questions. While I am grateful it happened before we got married, but I can’t figure out how to alleviate the aching pain that just won’t go away.
What about my parents who have to listen to society pointing fingers at them for their daughter’s breakup?
Do they deserve this?
It wasn’t even their fault. And that’s what hurts the most. Not the fact that I didn’t get married.
There are cases where others might force their children to get married to avoid society’s taunts, but my parents have been very supportive, and took care of everything with his family.
With their help, I put all my energy and time into work, reaching success at a fast rate. Nothing besides work and my parents matter to me.
My life becomes lifeless that year.
After attending a wedding with my parents one day, and facing society, makes me realize I want to run far far away.
“Is that Garima’s daughter whose wedding was broken off?”
“Wonder what happened to her, such a shame.”
“I heard she was more successful than the groom, so they broke it off.”
“It’s going to hard for them to find someone for her now?”
“Weren’t they in a relationship for a few years? Who knows what these kids do nowadays before marriage.”
“I feel bad for Shashi and Garima.”
What am I doing with my life now? I need to stop running, and rebuild it. My parents and I don’t deserve this. And I know exactly what to do.
“Amma, Babuji… I am moving to New York.”
I look at my parents’ stunned expression as we are having dinner. My father holds my mother’s hands to stop her from saying anything.
“Why?”
“I was contacted by a headhunter for a position with AR Corporation. That’s the company with the young CEO, Arnav Singh Raizada who has turned the company around from a failing small business. This is a key position on his leadership team to expand in New York. I can learn a lot from him if I get this position. Plus, I need time and space away from here to start my life over again.”
“So you’re saying if we let you move to New York, you will be able to move on from your past, and think about your future. Will you be able to do that?”
“Yes, I need this more than anything right now… I am tired of living like this. He isn’t worth it, he never was. I need to prove to myself, that I can move past this. But, we know that it won’t happen here.”
“If this is what you really want, and you will leave your past behind… your Amma and I will support you. But, please move forward, we want to see our Khushi khush again.”
“I know I will be able to move forward at AR, and New York… I promise.”
Starting today, I need to forget what’s gone, appreciate what still remains and look forward to what’s coming next.
120 Comments
~Ruchi~
🙂
Such a contrast between the proud joy Khushi’s parents felt at her achievements and the resentment felt by Sameer.
Why do some men feel that their masculinity is threatened if their wives or partners are doing better than them? Why can’t they appreciate her achievements and be happy for them as a couple. Why does it have to be seen as a comparison and reflection of where they themselves are.
I can now see why Khushi felt it so important to deal with Sheetal herself. Her self confidence was constantly undermined and her ability questioned and derided by Sameer. It’s made her very sensitive to any perceived slight. It’s bound to take time for her to accept that that’s not what Arnav is doing. She may know it, but that embracing of it will be a slow process.
There are so many reasons as to why we just drift into a relationship and then continue in its stultifying confines. Even though we are aware of the niggling feelings of doubt.
You can see how she was always giving in and making excuses for him and appeasing him. Khushi was always hoping that things will get better. And the fact that she felt this was what her parents wanted was what kept her persevering with continuing to try and make a go of things. Wishful thinking as it turned out to be.
It was painful reading Khushi questioning herself after catching Sameer in flagrante delicto. Very well put across Jigs.
Sameer means early morning fragrance. Such a misnomer. Stench of the sewer more like 😡
nashnini
There are so many reasons as to why we drift into a relationship and then continue in its stultifying confines …….
👌👌
So very true . How often we let ourselves stagnate in an unwarranted relationship …due to fear , guilt , Log Kya Kahengey…n so on .
nzmonica
😊
nzmonica
“The worst kind of weight any woman can gain…..is the weight of a weak man”
Khushi is fortunate that she didn’t end up with Sameer. She wasted 2 years of her life investing in the relationship which was wrong from the get go.
Men like Sameer are not too hard to find, they are everywhere, wo kya kehte hai – MCPig.🐷🐷🐷
She convinced herself she was in love, compromising daily, all for her parents happiness – which would not have lasted long when she was unhappy.
The journey to where she is was hard and challengeing but look where she is now – unapologetically successful and with a rewarding relationship with a real MAN.
naushi78
Maintaining relationships is a hard job.
Sadly these days love for some us just physical closeness and sex .
Khushi has been brave and strong and has pushed past her past
newfan2016
This hawa ka zhonka “Sameer” is obnoxious. Honestly, I find it hard to understand why Khushi put up with him for so long. Was it just the love for her parents that made her do it? Thankfully, I never came across anyone who would be-little me for all the achievements that I piled up through the years. But of course, there are several Sameer’s out there in this world, ready to bring you down. So much for the male ego. Sigh!
The catch line for me was “I know I will be able to move forward at AR, and New York… I promise.” Yes indeed 😀 😀
I am hoping that Khushi reveals this to Arnav and gets it out of her system once and for all.
BTW, Jigs, not fair haan. You left us on tenter-hooks on the “preview” that Arnav wanted Khushi to give him 😉 . Agla chapter kab aayega ? 😮
newfan2016
“I am hoping that Khushi reveals this to Arnav and gets it out of her system once and for all.”
Meant to say that hopefully Khushi reveals it all about Sameer.. and not about my catch line 😉 .
Sorry, PJ :p
Jigs~
No sorry needed, I totally understood what you meant 😉
💕Anjali💕
Me….💃💃….😘😘, Will be back soon…. Thanks Di ~ 🙏 ❤
mamtapuri2000
Great to hear Khushi’s past. She did the right thing. If someone can’t be faithful in a relationship they are not worth!
hailstorm464
Nice chapter. Well since I have already been on this journey before with you, thankfully I don’t have to speculate what next, but nonetheless I want to read the resumption of the ‘present’. This itself proves what a wonderful story you have woven.
Amita ( sakhi2013)
Nice update Jigs …
amibhav
Sameer here is a dick and mind you we have many guys around that are like Sameer, Who feels they are entitled to behave obnoxiously with their to be bride/wife.
Then there are woman like Khushi who tries to put up with these guys and tries and tries. Not many are lucky as Khushi who gets out of the relation. I am glad that Khushi showed him the door.
nik1310
Unfortunately, not uncommon the above.
😠 . The doubts were there from the start, nasty chauvnistic guy. Upbringing most important. Good riddance.
nccrwrt
Sameer episode explains Khushi’s very careful attitude towards relationship. Arnav and Khushi’s relationship is working like a balm on her heart. She finally has someone who loves her.
inasaahil
Glad that we finally got to know Khushi’s past with Sameer.
He was a douchebag for sure. And I wonder how a dmart girl like Khushi could miss out on the obvious signs. I mean for God’s sake he never was happy when she got a permanent position with the firm in which he had tried and failed. And he also woshed otherwise!! Like really.. A real man would have been so proud of Khushi for her achievements. But this man just ruined her happiness..
And on top of that he has the audacity to cheat on her just because she refused to entertain his physical needs!! Like really.. Duh!!
Loved this Khushi’s point of view..
Lots Of Love.. 😊😊
anamika
Sameer is a jerk…
mrshulkinfinity
I have always love khushi of this story
so strong and right on to point..
and that sameer is the -_- ……Not using a bad word just for the sake Of my Allah and this holy month of ramadan. *innocent face*
Jigs~
And he’s so not worth it!
Hope all is well Mrs. Hulk… hugs!
sbfili
Me too… I’m trying real hard not to swear during Ramadan.. but jigs is making it super hard with this Sameer 😂😂😂
amadea15
Her relationship with samer from the beginning was a mistake she has not noticed that she was jealous of her and tries to degrade her
waiting for the next
sbfili
Made it ❤️
ranogill
Awesome.. at least get to know about Sameer before marriage
monalisaa1
Sorry to say but there are many like Sameer. My heat went out to Khushi n her parents. But I must say Khushi is very lucky to have such good parents. And indeed she is making her future with the young CEO
jayasamhita
It is necessary for parents to be in sync with their children’s mind and thoughts. Then the world will be a better place to live in with less of tensions, depressions, suicides and what not.
oopppsss
I had totally forgotten what a royal jerk Sameer was…Thanks for Kushi’s Interlude.Arnav and Sameer are such different people…
Khushi’s hesitation comes from such a bad experience in the name of relationship.
Now with that behind her..she can joyfully move towards her Arnav and his Khushi❤️
arshi2503
Khushi tried the relationship to work though she knew Sameer was a jerk
There was no love ,concern,appreciation in that relationship.A male chauvinist
with ego problems.She did the right thing leaving him and moved to New York.
Loved the update Jigs, waiting for next.
chichu1
SAMEER.. such a thickheaded guy… he is a jerk.. good that khushi didn marry him …:)
also she is fortunate to see his true colour bfr marriage.. not every girl is lucky that way…
sandy1716
Me.. <3
sandy1716
Hey Jigs!!!
First impression is the best impression so true in sameer’s case.
“What a jerk! Wait, is that him? Yes it is… damn.” Exactly what a jerk he is.
Some men can’t appreciate success of their women openly but they silently encourage them in their own way, on the other hand men who don’t encourage and appreciate but point their fingers at women who got their share of success, they point becoz they simply can’t able to digest the fact that women got succeeded in which they failed, in order to satisfy their ego which got depleted in an unsuccessful attempt say all those things they have in their own diction. When at the time sameer said all those things to khushi all he deserved is nothing but one tight slap.
Considering and accepting all his flaws khushi decided to give their relationship a chance even though it is for the happiness of her parents shows how she values a relation.
The guy who expects nothing but one thing from a girl which satisfies his needs deserves a kick where it hurts the most.
Ha!! I’m waiting for the time where when arnav gets to know all those disgusting things that sameer did to khushi then he will get best and well deserved punches from him(I wish to see that… 😀 quite a violent person I’m right.. 😉 )
Yes khushi is right, sameer doesn’t deserve any emotion from khushi not even hate becoz to hate a person we’ve to think about his wrong doings (second thinking and reminding of what he done is not needed for khushi). Especially not when all she wanted is a new beginning,
As someone said “Every ending is creating the space and opening for New Beginning.” Something’s are needed to be ended in order to enjoy and embrace what the life has in store for us for our happiness… And khushi got what she deserves… The bestest partner in a relationship 😉
Love
-Sandy <3
mahrusweety
Awesome fantastic part.
That sameer was the biggest jerk to behave like this with khushi.happy that khushi found this before marriage
kaur94
Brilliant
udithadarshani
Sameer is a Sysco heart touching update loved it
priyasimon
KhushI has gone through a hard řelationship where she was supposed to be meek. but our KhushI is anything but meek. she is a strong independent lady with strong values and filled with lots of love. with Arnav as her partner, she will indeed be able to start a new life filled with trust, love and care.
bring on the music of love.
Great update indeed jigs with Khushi’s mental state portrayed beautifully.
Eagerly waiting for the next updates.
gkapoor123
Sameeris areal jrk that is why khushidid the right thing to chuck him out of his life.He had a lot of ego and was not able to digest khushi promotion but this did not stop khushi from moving ahead.Khushi parents are very supportive and they want only her happiness.She did the right thing of moving to newyork
keerthana
Reading the first half reminded me of my acceptance to BU:) very few people have the guts to walk away from a wrong relation! Staying in a relation for the sake of it or to keep someone else happy never works…. so glad that u put light on this! I love that ur kushi is strong! Infact ur protagonists r always strong nd have depth…..
poojavc
Sometimesjust like parents, children also can do anything for their parents happiness…so I can understand of Khushi putting up in relationship with chauvinistic jerk Sameer.😕 But I’m actually happy he turned out like that, because Khushi met Arnav after that!!!😁😉
soniia daula
Loved khushis interlude…….sometimes duty and instincts war with each other….and can lead to distasteful situations…..khushi and sameers life was the same way.
Loved this insight of khushis life..
Thanks
shruthisukumarg
First impression is the best impression….so true in Khushi z case….she found him to be a jerk when she met him first and the same opinion lasted….
This Khushi is very admirable… Looking at the way she handled her equation with Sameer…trying to build on the relation with him…
But you know what….we women have to be selfish sometimes …even though you are dealing with your parents…had she not compiled to their parents wishes for marraige and insisted on pursuing her career…it would have saved the heartbreak for her and her parents…cause like they say that the woman z intuition can seldom be wrong…
Take care hon and absolutely loved this interlude…
fermeen30
Loved the update, brilliant. Sameer is such a class A jerk and glad that Khushi’s life was saved before getting spoilt. For women it always comes down to family and duty, hence decisions are lifelong which can either lead to happiness or can also lead to sadness. Eager for the next part.
Broknangel
Hi.. due to fasting and other commitments am really late these days in both blogs.. I hope to read and comment soon.. so please bear with me..
psiri123
Sameer is a scum bug…his future is in great trouble I guess… having such supportive parents khushi would rise and shine
Ekta (IF:Luvbug)
Grr that sameer was always jealous and never appreciated khushi for her achievements… it reminded him of his failures
Oh n wanted to stay away from his parents to avoid their nagging.. how sick …
I’m so glad khushi came to know about his true colors before marriage… n thank the senior guptas for supporting khushi 😊
But feel bad for khushi… but seriously there are some many of them who go through these feelings and down play their achievements to not hurt their partners.. sigh 😔
I’m glad to have a family that appreciates and motivates me to do more (even when I don’t want to 😋)
Fantastic update!!
nadiajhung
Nice interlude….we get to see khushi’s past….her relationship with Sameer was doomed from the start….Sameer did not deserve khushi….he was a man with inferiority complex and when you are not happy with your partner’s success you are a pathetic person.khushi was doing it only for her parents happiness but thank God she realised on time that if she is not happy,her parents will not be happy as well.Now that she is with Arnav,she is experiencing the true love.she will continue this beautiful journey with her arnav with lots of meethas 🙂
johngaltif
Thank God that Sameer is out…
Such a painful point in her life…
ASR here she comes…Beautiful!!
lakshmiteck
Garima apprehension about finding suitable alliance 4 a girl at high level position is very much right .men like Sameer is always present in society who thinks highly of himself.the fault always imposed on girl family 4 break up of alliance
pinkly007
That guy Sameer, I hate to even mention his name. He was so self centered, self obsessed idiot. He is out of her life … good riddances to the bad pathetic ones.
He made khushi feel so low about herself and her achievements.
I am glad Khushi’s parents were so supportive.
Nice chapter Jigs. Sameer is gone for now and I am happy.
lathamageshwari
Sameer is a jerk and these characters are found in society who can’t accept woman’s accomplishments and have also met women like Khushi who are willing to compromise to ensure their loved ones are happy. Khushi’s decision to kick Sameer out of her life and to move to New York is great, she was able to do this because of her supportive parents. Great interlude and thanks.
swetharajulapati
Such a heart breaking…. their r guys like sameer all over. Its in us who we choose.. happy khushi came out of it.. and thats lovely that her parents r supportive. ..
Hemalatha
The whole Sameer episode has only made Khushi stronger. He is a total MCP. Thank God there was something holding Khushi back from moving ahead with the relationship. Her instincts paid off when she caught him red handed with another woman. Such a jerk!
Her parents have been wonderful and supportive through this period. It has obviously scarred her too. Arnav being such a gentleman is patient.
mayabhi
Awesome chapter.. Khushi was young and loved her parnts too much to think only abt herself. Thats y even wen she felt her relationship with Sameer wasnt great, she still tried to make it work. I love her a little more knowing her past. She is a really smart, hardworking girl and a wonderful daughter..
ritzsubu1204
God knows when will this ego issue of men wil settle down. Just bcoz of men like Sameer girls can’t move forward.
Just loved the way Khushi decided to move forward.
Its said that Time heals every wound and now our Khushi will have Arnav there for healing of her every wound.
ccf94
Awesome update. Society still wants women to be subordinates to men yet they talk about feminism. Sameer is a typical chauvinist character who gets intimidated by khushi’s success. Happy that khushi’s parents supported her. Khushi is really strong and now has Arnav. Superb update. Eagerly waiting for more
hjaye15
I feel sorry for Kushi but desame time feel proud of her, man like sameer are disappointed to mankind , this is a lessen to we women all, if you are in a unhealthy relationship make it right and get the hell out of it , she try her best but sameer is a asshole,,,,, thank you for the update,
tina1234if
Damn I hate Sameer tooo much But am glad he happened so khushi moved to New York and met arnav
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readersworld253
Nice update…
Anamika
Fabulous part
Loved Khushi’s Interlude a lot
Sameer is such a self-centred disgusting man…. he is a jerk indeed
Glad that Khushi found out about his deed before their marriage and he is out of her life
Khushi’s decison to move to NYC is a great one
Can’t wait for the next one
Thank you 🙂
usha
awesome part
Choco_b
This entire chapter credits for making Khushi who she is and what she made out of her life goes to her parents😘 They let her breathe fly high reach for the stars keep nothing as a limitation for this woman to be herself
When patents have a disconnect with the kids do guys like Sameer get the fake guts to behave like a jerk I said fake guts because there’s no guts required to be a jerk to a woman it takes guts for a man to keep aside his male ego and cheer his lady if she’s a better achiever than him and Sameer lacks it in plenty 🤢 Such a jerk needs to be taught a lesson if allowed to go free they’ll repeat the same to another woman 😒😡
Khushi certainly needs a man that’ll respect her for her achievements and boost her morales as the girl has been emotionally abused by that jerk for a significant time period 😣
Why is it that as a society parents too bow down to the idea that a man can accept only a woman who’s lesser than him why not sane applicable for women why the double standards 😪 When will we
Move from the concept of marriage is end game for a woman 😑 A woman too has her dreams and rights it’s time it is a reality for all women to be who they are without being judged.
Lastly thanks to ASR and sankadevi for bringing writers like you and stories like this to enjoy 😍😘 I hope you won’t move on from these two and their choti se duniya any time soon greedy me wants more Arnav Khushi stories from you Jigs dii🤓 And frankly I hope Barun does characters like your Arnav though they are all not perfect none of your Arnavs misbehave malhandle nor abuse their women going by gul’s trend I’m keeping hopes low but fed up seeing women portrayed worse than the Stone Age on tv. Young girls these days find it cool and romantic when the so called push pull and thamasha is shown between the characters sprinkle it with some background tunes and they are Khushi but it annoys me that producers specially women lack basic common sense when they portray their fictional characters in the name of entertainment🤢😓 finally viewers get all the blame for lack of good shows with concepts
I love the fact that in your stories you portray humans that are imperfect but nevertheless they have a sense of character and integrity!
radhikavelineni
Hi wonderful update.Children are so lucky who have these type of parents.sameer is such a jerk and lucky khushi she was known about him before marriage.Indeed she has a better future in AR and New York.one more time i an requesting for the access of Temtation Transumated pls think about my request.
anamika34
Sameer is a 😈😈😈. Khushi is 💔. She has insecurities because of this break-up.
Kuldeep Kaur
HI nice update hopefully kushi get her happiness
cutieeijaz
Awesome Update. Sameer is a selfish jerk. Good he is out of her life.
simi82sikha
Sameer z such a jerk!!!! At last khusi got rid of that unwanted relationship,so good for her.
godis222good
Wow, it’s good we’ve finally become acquainted with the illusory Sameer….good riddance. What a jerk!!! This has served as a stopgap for us to piece together where Khushi originated from. A woman of substance whose wisdom & unflinching hard work is taking her to places. Once again well done dearest Jigs!!!
anu1017
Awesome update J!! It still gets the same emotion spreading about Sameer hate him so much, how could he do that to Khushi who was genuinely so much invested in the relationship and totally dedicated to him, I guess some people are wired not be considerate. Cannot wait for the next update!!!!
thefirstrays
Sameer was a jerk from Day 1. A total MCP. Men like him are out there in plenty. They just can’t accept the fact that women can do better than them. They are not worth our time and energy. It is sad that Khushi had to endure this MCP for 2 years for her parents’ happiness. Coming to NY was really good for Khushi. She is excelling career-wise and she has a man who loves and respects her and will be with her through thick and thin. 🙂
vanismagadi
It hurts me to see Kushi going thru torturous time.. good it happened, otherwise Arnav would be nowhere in scene.
I kind of feel Kushi should have exposed Sameer n filed a complaint.. made his life miserable..
At last her parents agreed to her n understood her.. many a times this is not true n daughter gets to sacrifice..
Can’t wait for next update..
Cheers
damjar
Khushi is a Strong person. Luckily she had her Parents who encouraged her, Stood By her as and were proud of her achievements.
It truly was painful for her especially emotionally knowing very well that she did not feel anything for Sameer. Not even as a Friend. He never stood by her nor encouraged her, she had a inkling things will not be right between them. But for her parents happiness she never voiced her distress and hoped things will improve. Wish she had shared her fears atleast with Anjali. Then Possibly she might not have gone through the pain over the few years she was with Sameer.
Sameer could not take Khushi being a success both as a Student and a person growing in the professional world. Why is it some individuals can’t take it knowing the next person is better in what they do. It is a pity, instead of being happy and encouraging her, he always put her down. Thankfully Khushi was strong and knew she was good at what she did and knew where she wanted to be in the corporate world.
It is amazing, what a contrast between Arnav – the ever encouraging and Supportive person. He has known Khushi for a short period of time. But he knew her potential and was a true gentleman as well on the personal front, giving her her space & support.
While Sameer – though a family friend, was anything but any of the above.
Glad that Khushi decided to make a move for Better, though she along with her parents did go through a tough year. Hopefully things are falling into place for Khushi and she is back to being herself.
rohinid84
Awesome update
Good that khushi got rid of sameer.
Loving strong khushi
Varsha
I don’t want to talk about…What a douchebag that Sameer was..
How much Khushi tried to adjust in that so called relationship… How much sacrificed she being herself…& to impress him which in turn made her parents happy..or so she thought or her parents’ unknowingly made her thought so..
No wonder she took some time to warm up to Arnav though every word Anjali said was proved to be true for them!!
Now they are so tuned to each other & thinks more about other before thinking for themselves !! & Khushi deserves this happiness!!
This makes me think…girls who got an understanding partner in their first ever relation are so lucky without any hardships &needless to face the damn society!!
But the failures will make a person strengthen by the experience & give us confidence to get back into the track if we take it in a positive way like Khushi..who got her second chance at love with an amazing person like Arnav!!
Much needed insight into Khushi’s past!!
Wonder how Arnav will react once he came to know!!
Well written Jigs!!
❤
desaimamta
Hello Jigs
The only relief , it was in the past, so good riddance, and things came in light before marriage, other wise the impact would have been more, am not saying it is any less but things would have been much more difficult, khushi’s decision to join AR was very good , she needed a fresh start. LOVED her parents, who support her.
Now coming to SAMEER, we find these types of guys in abundance, so no point in blaming him as it shows his upbringing, so here is lesson for us,to all the mothers and girls , that, it is up to us to change the outlook of the society, we are with children in their formative years, so we can change and impact their thinking.
Thank u Jigs for introducing Sameer, so we can all learn from him so much.
So proud of khushi, for achieving so much and daring to move on after such a nasty experience.
Thank u Jigs for this wonderful and inspiring update
Thank u
xyzsm
Such an a**hole this sameer is…Thanks heaven that khushi got to see his real face before marriage…otherwise it would have been more painful….
loved the update <3
madhurao1210
Sameer is totally jerk…
How khushi for so long ignored his arrogant attitude.
But thsnk god she found it before it gets late..
Nice slap by her he deserve more
Looking forward
shekha2012
Just like Khushi there are soo many girls tied in marriage and relationships thinking one day everything will be ok and blindly trusting the guy this is really a eye opening. Jigs dear. Have gmail you about TEMPTATION shekhathanzil@yahoo.com my email
aranya19
Sameer-Such a disgusting person he is… And the harsh reality is that there are many ppl around us who are like him… Cheap, having huge manly ego who consider themselves superior to women in every aspect. For them relationships are analogous to physical relations…and sameer was one of them…
I really feel very bad for Khushi that she had to go through all this for such a long time… Though she wanted to put a stop to all this, but she couldn’t – coz of her parents…but better late than never….
Khushi’s hesitation for relationships and advances of Arnav- all of this make sense now coz after what all she has gone through – courtship, engagement and an almost marriage- it would have been really difficult for her… This had affected her personally as well as professionally…but all this bitter past has made her the woman she is now- Arnav’s woman- bold, strong and confident…
Truly everything happens for a reason…and all that khushi went through was just because she was destined to get true love in the form of her lovely boyfriend 😉
An interesting sneek peak into Khushi’s past… Waiting for our new lovers story to move forward 🙂
muskaansobti4
Damn dis sameer was obnoxious
Wat did he think of himself if he is a man he needs to be more successful den a woman plus going around doing sex wid grls n was betraying khushi glad to hear khushi’s past n she has moved on frm dis shit sameer guy hope she shares all dis wid arnav
ayushivishui
awesome Loved it yar….
Now I got it…this is the reason behind khushi’s hesitation for relationships and intimacy…. she had gone through a lot….there are so many people like sameer in the society who is self-centered who had manly ego to the core…..they can’t see the women getting more success than them and even if they are in a relationship they will sleep around
and if they get caught red-handed the answer will be his girlfriend is not cooperating for physical intimacy…is it a relationship means only sex….and emotional attachment means nothing…khushi tooked right decision at right time….I am really happy that khushi’s parents were really supportive and they agreed her stay in new York….. everything happens for a reason….khushi’s Destiny was in Newyork…so she reached correctly there were her true love is….
sbfili
Sameer in arabic means a friend… more of a companion.. some one you find joy being with.. but God… did he miss the mark.. and by miles!
Why does the society nurture this feeling of males supremacy.. that you won’t find a husband if you’re a successful woman.. that even if you find a job you try to remain within lines.
You shouldn’t by any means surpass him and his position.. when you face a trouble at work.. you must be considerate and don’t bother him with your nonsense.. because poor lad is constantly tired.. if you become a wife and mother you should juggle both your roles silently.. and if anything happens with kids/house.. remain silent and don’t tell him right away.. receive him with a scented clean house and glam yourself for him… and wake up before him so you have time to apply makeup and prepare breakfast…
I swear these are real tips given to women.. all of them!
They guilt women.. making them feel that everything is their fault and responsibility.. we end up with a generation with battered confidence and a humongous guilt complex.. it’s sad to know that Khushi’s parents are rare example.. that Khushi kept on giving him excuses.. Sameer is the prime example for the male who will willingly stay in a relationship.. only if he is the beneficiary part..
shalinimathur80
What a pathetic guy… absolutely ridiculous.. while on one side I totally despise him for being so arrogant.. self centred.. pompous ass.. I am glad he cheated and was caught red handed by khushi so she could slap him and throw him out of her life.. making space for Arnav.. 😉😉
Proud of khushi and her parents..
barunfan1212
Wow! such a long interlude and you covered the whole Sameer story in one chapter.
I’m so glad that Khushi escaped from such an Self centered beast. He was no match for her intelligence, smartness and good manners. What was wrong with Khushi to put up with him. There was no love or understanding in that relationship. For Khushi it was a compromise to please her parents.
For such an educated, caring family Khushi and her parents all acted foolishly.
As some one previously mentioned I’m happy he cheated and got caught red handed. If he has not cheated or not got caught what a life Khushi would have ended up with and what an amazing job and love she would have missed in her life.
A very sad and an eye opening chapter for all the readers.
Thanks for all your time in penning such a long chapter.
yoga1237
Khushi got lot of signals that Sameer is not the guy……….he takes her for granted, doesn’t see her as person she is……..talented, loving, caring and giving………but he sees her as his competitor, jealous on her achievements, doesn’t care for her feelings, he cares for only materialistic pleasures…….he damaged her to a greater extent……..Feeling so bad for Khushi……..she always kept others first…………she tried and put her efforts to make this relationship work for her parents sake………..she did not want her parents to be unhappy……..but Sameer turned out to be a cheap, manipulative person……………Awesome chapter
nimmskrish
Sameer deserved the slap, but he is also responsible for khushi to meet arnav. Thank god her parents are a sweetheart to support her.
mdtharun
Sameer is an a*****e from the beginning . Why did Khushi even waste her time ? Khushi is lucky , she just escaped narrowly . If she had married Sameer then her life would have sucked .Sameer deserved that slap .
Such a weakling Sameer is , he couldn’t stand khushi’s success in education & Profession . We can find many Sameer’s in the real life . Men cannot easily take a woman’s victory .
Sameer has broken khushi’s trust like a paper . The paper can be smoothed but it’s never going to be the same again .
mdtharun
Strong people know how to keep their life in order . Even with tears in their eyes , they still manage to say ‘I am okay with a smile ‘ .
This is what is felt when khushi decided to move to New York for the new beginning .
maitricuteheart
NIce to go through khushi’s past…. she can have a new beginning!!!
Anitha
Reading the interlude brings a brand new perspective about khushi and shows how much she has changed herself with in Arnav’s and hers relationship as well. She probably feels more right with him than how she felt with Sameer.
What a jerk sameer turned out to be..glad she found out before her wedding.
I want to go back and read all the chapters now as I feel it will bring in a new look or perspective of khushi and how much deserving she is for that true love!
Very intense and a long interlude. Thank you!
heemasomani
Mindblowing update
sameer is a b*****d
he was jealous of khushi and her achievements
poor khushi she tried so hard to keep up the relationship
but that cheapster cheated on her
amazingly penned
sweetygirl28
Sameer toh MCP nikla.. such a shameless moron.. she kept trying so hard to workout the relationship. Yet all he does is ignore her. Jealous at her achievement’s. . Yeah when such men see successful woman they just can’t digest the fact..
It’s really good khushi made a better decision and did not go the emotional route of marrying him for keeping her parents happy.. she deserves better
trvia1432
Samer’s was jealous of Khushi’s achievements… He is an MCP, who couldn’t digest the fact that Khushi is more successful than him…
This is quite common in today’s society…, especially in the corporate world… I am glad that Khushi came to know the truth before she got married… and the fact that he wanted to just have sex with her…and that’s why he is marrying her…is quite disgusting…
Waiting to know Arnav’s reaction to this…
Please update fast…
Really excited…
theincandescentlights
It annoys me that girls need to run away from their home and their family to be able to forget a horrible part of their lives while the guy who caused all the pain sits at his home, enjoying all the luxuries his parents can provide him and people don’t even say a single thing against him. It’s so frustating.
(Sorry for the rant but even today, in 2017, it’s considered that guys will be better medical professionals than girls– just as your Khushi experiences in Temptation; and that is just one of the drawbacks of being a girl😑)
Anyway, I love this interlude, it gives so much insight into the kind of person had become and her relationship with her parents, her friendship with anjali and why she needed to handle Sheetal on her own.
Wonderfully written. As per always.
Love
M.
shalakapathare
Unfort Indian men cannot handle women being more successful than them hope Khushi actually is able to reveal her past to arnav
zee421
WOW! Sameer is such an ass. It’s sad to say that this is still happening in the world. No matter how modern Sameer was, his thoughts were still outdated when it comes to a women’s success. Men like that, that don’t control over a women’s success tries to find over ways to control them ie. “SEX” . I’m glad she found out what a pig he is before getting married to him. She has amazing parents who are so understanding . I hope now Khushi tells Arnav so that she finds closure and move on with him. Fingers crossed! Have a super awesome Saturday ☘🌹
arshilicious.M
i love this song to the core of my heart…it soothes very much!!
after such a turbulent update..this is the most soothing thing i would always love to here!
the update about sameer is at last up!
such a male chauvanist pig he is!!
khushi has undergone the most turbulent stage of her life with this MCP and the never ending society!
garima is the most innocent person i have read in this update…her only dream to see her daughter settled in a happily married life like herself!
shashi is the most supportive pa i have known..cuz my pa is the same…i can relate to khushi with the type of parents and expectations she has….cuz i m the same!
she wanna be a CEO..has a dream to achieve and knows the way she has to….she has to fulfill her ma’s dream of being a beautiful blushing happiest bride….she has to make her pa proud of herself for never let him invest even a penny behind her cuz she wanna do things on her own!…she wanna have a happy married life like her parents..where these two set a example for her!
anjali….gotta glimpse of what anji and khushi together were! how she was the one role playing the crucial part of protagnist’s best friend!
in all..this is the best update i have read <3
greyasr1
Loved it and its the most profound chapter (even in the prev version) that i almost remember it word to word
shadowofbird
Khushi’s interlude was lovely
Khushi is very lucky to have such supportive parents
Sameer this man , is shit in the name of a man
Typical MCP he is cant see any achievement of woman above him
Also became a cheater
I wanted khushi to kick him where it hurts the most..
Anyways its all in the past hope khushi reveals this to arnav very soon
Echtee IF
HUMA
sandiamalik123
That bastard Sameer. He was not a man enough for her. If a man truly loves you then he should be happy for your success not jealous or provocative. At time he tells Khushi that he loves her and was having intimate relationship with other girls. What has the world come too.
But Khushi was Khushi she was doing it for her parents happiness but she didn’t knew her parents would be happy if she is contented in her life. Let bygones be bygones. Now she is happy and her parents would be happy with her choice because this she has got a GEM.
swapnat1963
awesome update Jigs. loved Khushi’s interlude.
Swapna
lovebooksmusic
Great update👍…. beautifully written. …..
prha1
Love Khush’s parents — the way they support her when she finds out about Sameer — parents should be like that — loving, being her biggest support and for trusting her … lovely!!!!!
Anonymous
Very well written 👏🏻👏🏻👌🏻👍🏻
neha2013g
awesome update..
Sameer is such a jerk.. is self centered and has no respect for women or relationships.. but glad that atleast khushi came to know about him before marriage..
khushi will eventually get all the happiness she truly deserves 🙂
khushisony
Heyyy di!! Great update..feel Sorry for kushi..she dint have to be with that idiot for so many years!! Glad she came to know about it and the marriage did not happens.!! The society always taunts girls no matter who s d reason!! Anyway its done and dusted now for kushi!! Is kushi telling all of this to arnav? Kushi really have such wonderful parents😊😊
Looking forward to next update..post confession😉
chocmoc
Go Khushi! And she moved on after moving to New York. I am so glad she broke up with Sameer. 🙂
jyothim78
Sameer is so chauvinist, arrogant..I ove Khushi’s family…
claucrispop
i love it…
i cant wait to read the next chapter…
please continue soon..
sansid123
Good Riddance to Sameer – some men just can’t handle women especially their partners
being smarter – and use their insecurities as an excuse to become physically or mentally abusive – and if they do that best is to kick them where it hurts most their ego and their dick